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Name: Jordan
Birthday: 9/3/1987
Gender: Male


Interests: Wow, I have waaaay too many interests to list... but mostly, I love the arts. Especially music. I also love theology and philosophy, as well as the written word. There's just so much to talk about in regards to life. (oh... and I like... anime :$)


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Friday, January 30, 2009

Why am I am even on this site?

I wish I was fifteen again.


Saturday, August 04, 2007

I resurface briefly

To say, "wow, Christian rock has changed since I was in high school".  What happened to punk, ska, rapcore, pop-rock, and emo?  Suddenly, most Christian music, since the breakup of Five Iron and Brave Saint Saturn, Christian rock has largely been metal, hardcore, and screamo.  That's crazy... funny how my music writing changed to suit that, isn't it?  Just an odd observation I decided to put up here that I know no one will ever read.  But ya know... this must really say something about modern Christianity and the emerging church... when Underoath (who are AWESOME) are the most popular band... emotionalism and the search for "The Varieties of Religious Experience" (yeah, it's a great book, and I couldn't help but reference it there) seem to be the driving force behind the rise of Christian hardcore/metal/screamo.  Maybe I'm not alone in my search?  Now, if only the emerging and liturgical churches could be united...

(wow... what a useless post...I don't understand why I just did that... I'm going to leave it up anyways, since no one's gonna read a blog that's been defunct for like, two years)


Tuesday, October 03, 2006

*sigh*... I guess I'm back

    I suppose I'm back... after a long absence.  But... I don't really have much to say that would be of interest to anybody in particular .  Other than... it's funny just how different life is now than it was last year at this time of year... and I think I owe someone an apology... if I don't work up the courage to say it in person... and if you still keep tabs on me... I am so sorry... and I guess that's it.  That aside I'm terribly content.  Joy living at Vic is awesome... totally different from the long distance relationship of last year... this'll prove to be an amazing year for sure... (btw, afd concert on Friday!)


Monday, June 26, 2006

As the sun sets over distant horizons

Amidst lights of our own design

We steel ourselves for the tragedy

Of life for another day.

 

False tragedians, we wallow in the

Frivolous fears of our time

Gratification takes precedence

Our lives, rendered worthless

 

But only by our own

Selfish surrender to sorrow undue

 

The sun sets over us

in a land largely ignored

A song arises -

Not the sorrow sodden song of suffering that we so prefer

Nor the formulaic musics that are as sunlight produced in a windowless room

 

But an ancient song of perseverance - pertinacity purposeful

A song of life

A song of survival

A song of thanksgiving

 

And myself

Hero to my own eyes

Victim of the suburban tragedy

 

My hands are stained with the blood of the martyrs

 

Then it is these hands that must be the seeds of their cause

No longer do they work towards goals of packaged happiness

But for the eternally unfortunate disenfranchised

Upon whose backs my world was built


Currently Reading
Mere Christianity
By C. S. Lewis
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I was, for  a time, perusing some of my older poetry, and stumbled upon two works that I love ever so dearly.  One is a typical Jordan-type poem, that being, a typical comparison between emotionalism and the archetypical tragic hero, and the other is somewhat different from my other works, in that it is somewhat anti-societal.  I had forgotten how passionate I once was about the pending downfall of modern social structure and, more specifically, the sort of capitalist notions that drive the World Bank to the extremities that it has reached today.  This poem has somewhat reminded me of that passion, and I am not in the least ashamed to admit that I still harbour some of those same feelings.

Persephone Captive

Yesterday, as your tears gleamed in the refracted light
Of a shattered love
The difficulty of catching you
Before you fell onto the shards of your broken heart

From the vision of a broken heart,
You'll find the truth of love,
From the vantage of your knees,
You'll find the unforsaking, forsaken by the changing of times.

It takes you back to where stars held up the sky
It takes you back to where eros died

For the sake of Persephone captive
Theseus falls from his cliff
In a moment of sic transit
Gloria

Atop a Heap of Hoarded Refuse

Atop our own heap of hoarded refuse

We stand, ever vigilant, holding close

To our hearts all that is dear to us

The treasures of our world

Our own useless scrapheap

At a time when all was clear

At a time when our fate drew near

Before the sound of a burning dream

Before the established American regime

We could hear the sound that the earth would make

 

A sort of low rumble

The sound that you can only hear

In dreams

 

It is the sound of freedom

It is the sound of passion

 

Plagued by our own disillusioned

Mindless mechanic automated program of thought

Plagued by the billboards

The radio

The screen-god

The tenth legion returns to ravage our thoughts

Pax Romana

Pax Americana

As they rape and pillage the very core of our beings

They install their

Idiocy fear instilling puppet government

Upon the throne of our minds

Set forth to sap the wealth of our minds

 

And yet, still plagued by our own

Inadequate insoluble fear of inferiority

We all move on

Fearful

But undaunted

For what are we but marionettes

Dangling on the string of

The unknown invisible

Or are the strings only attached to our minds

I am Jason I am Oedipus I am Achilles

I am Pyrrhus

Doomed to fall for the greater cause

What greater cause is there than freedom

 

Not this reeking repulsive pile of refuse

Atop which we writhe and wail

And try and fail

To attain what we never can seem to find

Freedom

Not the kind you can buy and sell

Or write out upon paper

Not the kind that allows you to vote

But only for the rich and privileged candidate

Freedom joy happiness and

Peace

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